He Who Has Not Been Seen...in like, forever

Discussion in 'WT Main' started by WindsOfBoreas, Aug 15, 2014.

He Who Has Not Been Seen...in like, forever

Discussion in 'WT Main' started by WindsOfBoreas, Aug 15, 2014.

  1. WindsOfBoreas

    WindsOfBoreas .

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    So I thought I might explain a little as to why I have been gone. For new recruits, I am/was an officer for WT but have been away for quite some time. For those who were recruited at least four months ago, you'll at least have a passing knowledge of me.

    The last time I was on was on June 30th. I joking texted Highlander and told him that I'll see him in another two months. Well here we are forty-six days later and I still haven't been able to get on and play. I wish it had been nothing but a joke, but it easily looks like this will just be my life.

    I used to get on every day and loved flying with new recruits; loved trying to recruit. However, when Sam, my son, turned eight months, he began to be even more of a handful than usual and his schedule changed to where he wouldn't go to bed until 0100 or 0200. Now, he is a year old and nearly walking. Most days I simply don't even eat until he's gone to bed -- which is thankfully around 2300 now. You might be wondering why it is that I cannot get online, why someone else can't just take Sam for a little bit. Frankly, there is no one. While I still have my wife and I still live with my parents, I cannot give him to anyone. My wife is utterly useless when dealing with Sam, whining and complaining all along the way even doing something as simple as just making him a bottle; my parents...well, anytime I rely on them, they break me down and make me feel like a bad father. That's effectively my life now: to be broken, to be taken advantage of, to be used.

    I have wanted to come back and play, wanted to fly, but I just haven't been able to justify it with myself. What little time I have during the day I want to use for fun and, quite simply, waiting in a queue for ten minutes to then spend another ten minutes ascending to maybe get a chance to get a kill is not fun, not when my day may only permit one match. As well, I felt on June 30th like I had been left behind; looking at the forums, I can see that I have. Congratulations to those who have moved up amongst the division and to those who have improved so much.

    I don't know if I will stay or go. I cannot see a place for me here any more. One could say that I could find a new squadron, but that wouldn't be the same. It would never be the same bunch of great guys nor have the same humor. Even the planes would never fly as gracefully, never as confident that you're part of a team.

    Broken Wing
     
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  2. RossTiger

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    Sorry to hear about your situation. I've never met you myself having only joined in the last few months but you sound like a really nice guy who really deserves a break. I hope you can find some way soon of relieving some of a stress your currently carrying.

    If I was you I wouldn't leave the squadron, maybe you haven't been on in a while but I'm sure people will still be happy to fly with you even for short periods, if you find another squadron you won't have the roots there that you have here.

    If I happen to see you online by any fluke chance I'd be more than happy to chat and fly with you :)
     
  3. Valrimor

    Valrimor .

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    Hey Wings, you certainly have not been left behind. We all knew that your responsibilities as a father would have to come first, as they should. We also often wondered when you would be back, and assumed that one day you would just return. I am sure that I can speak for most (if not all) of us when I say we look forward to that day. Until then, keep doing the right thing. Take it from someone that didn't do the right thing as a father. I am fortunate enough to be forging a new relationship with my daughter, who is now 31 and has children of her own. But i missed out on her childhood...hell...I missed out on her whole life. My point is that what you are doing is far more important than flying digital aircraft. I, for one, am 100% behind you and will still look forward to flying with you whenever you do get the opportunity.
     
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  4. Doomforge

    Doomforge Mr. Self Destruct

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    as always, real life comes first. We'll be here when ever your ready to come back
     
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  5. HIGHLANDER

    HIGHLANDER Administrator,Motivational speaker,van dweller

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    TAKE CARE OF SAM FIRST AND FOREMOST! We will be around when you have or can find the time. THe game is evolving into not just climb thunder with the coming patches and the possibility of an open world concept. You will always be NNG just take the break we will see you when we see you!
     
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  6. Glissen

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    Kids take a huge chunk of our free time. Always. Enjoy it while they take it. Eventually, they won't have time to give it themselves.

    Many of us have backed away this summer. Life has been rather busy for us all. We feel your pain, and share it like brothers in arms.

    Take care of that little one, and feel free to jump on comms for a pick-me-up, even if you don't have time to fly.

    We look forward to your return, however brief the time is that you have to share with us.

    Until then, watch your six brother.
     
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